Faded in Shadows

As a 16 year old, i'm all into the social thing. I like to have friends talk to me and be around me, but thats just during school. I would like to have that social stigma outside of school like some people got it and just hang with friends and be more connected. Some people say I don't got a life. Well...there kinda right. I don't do anything really because I don't have a car mostly, and I can't get anywhere unless if I ask my parents to drive me which kills me inside a little. But I don't want to end up in one of those sucky teen drama's where they possibly walk around a lake, toss a few stones, and end up in a serious relationship in which something good/bad happens. But with every teen, has the ultimate thing in communication. A Cell Phone!

I had a cell phone but I friken lost it somewhere and I can't find it. Its been gone for like a month and a half now so like I don't know what to do. Some of my friends have to literally protect and care for it like a precious gem or something like in Lord of the Rings, or basically just keep it charged and text like crazy. The most reasons I've seen for a use of a phone is Facebook, texting, and other kinds of junk. A phone to me is like a key to being socially accepted. (to me at least) So if I wanted to hang with somebody i'd send a text here and a text there and BAM! Hanging out. But thats another thing I also want to put in this post. Hanging out? 

I know that means to like go and be with friends and junk. But since im just 16 and have partially protective parents. I can't really drive, get a job for some $$$, or just get out once in a while. To me hanging out is just hang at some guy's house and play some games or just get messed up. *hint hint* I don't have a problem with that, its just I want to do things alot differently. I would just like to go and drive to pick up some of my friends so we can go somewhere where its killer to be! Like some killer parties and junk, or just go and be with my friends and just do something instead of just sit there and do nothing. And I know most of my friends are more socially acceptable then me because for one: there constantly talked too, do wayyy more things that I could do. Already some of my friends went snowboarding at one of my favorite mountains in MI, but I wanted to go but I either did't have money or I just did't want to go to either make a fool of myself or just something else in particular. WHICH SUCKS!!! I mean cmon! Invite me please!

I guess not...In fact the reason this post is called "Faded in Shadows" is because today I looked out a window, and its starting to get dark and the way the shades of the trees form on the lawn is just awesome. And the kitchen light is shining above me. And I thought to myself, "Man, I wish I could just share this awesome sight with my friends."...but where are they? exactly. So I just backed away a little. And my partial reflection in the window started to fade away as I backed off. TO ME. That made me feel alone. And I hated it so much. I thought to myself am I truly alone? I know some of you out there know that I am your friend which makes my heart all happy and junk. But I would love it if we could hang out more, mabye as a group even! To me that would make my day! awesome. :)

Post by - Jacob Sivley/Cooldud21

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